where the hell am i?

dude. i haven't blogged in like.. forever. i really have too much going on and at the same time nothing..
here's some pictures in no particular order. enjoy.

nude

newt

darkness

vagina

stochasticity  

deer

the end of october.

well it'd be a shame to not have a single post for october, so heres a few pics of my art from 2005. a few nude studies... no big deal. man i've been busy lately.. and life is crazy as usual... but, i hope to do more art work eventually.. been thinking of applying to art school.. sure i'm broke, but i'm cool with having a lot of debt.. wait, no i'm not..

sisters

pearl and dorthea

sisters at the pow-wow

having a great time

the girls keeping it real

life as pictures

so yeah. i've been sketchbookin' relearning how to doodle, and basicly living life... here's a few moments for you all.. like all 3 of you.

talk about a light rail 

some people pay good money to live next to this swamp. it does have it's charm and i'm happily calling it home right now...

oh shit my neighborhood is on fire!

don't worry everything worked out fine. look i had doughnuts! so much for cutting my carbs... 

vegan chocolate and maple bacon. yup, dumb joke but i had to do it. the irony was too delicious.. man, me with the dumb jokes...

hey. someday soon. i will do some art. promise. 

dear blog

i've been neglecting you. i'm sorry. i've just been really busy. it's me. not you.

but i'll be back soon. promise. i'll even get you that nice layout i know you've been wanting.

until then:

life as pictures

hey there little guy!

dead owl for rhea

it's strange, you said you looked at the moon and thought of me.. and i was doing the exact same thing..

whole lotta tee pee going on 

lense flare fetish

my cousin was an eagle, if only for a while.

ok, we get it, tee-pees are photogenic. enough already gabriel  >:(

life as pictures

this is all i need to post. my day has been awesome.

life as pictures

two on a carabiner, one in my hand, and my head on fire.

life as pictures

life as pictures

this is how it is done:

robots curate the art museums of jupiter

i have been a terrible artist. i haven't drawn with the tanacity that is required of this lofty title. i do not deserve it: Artist. this i may not be.. maybe it is a goal i will never truely obtain.. maybe none of us ever have... it's an absract idea, the definition is up to the whim of the culture that surrounds us. my "block" as the artistic types call it, came from me realizing that humanity would not likely continue to exist, that it is possible, nay likely that machines, artificial intelligences, would be the only cognitive entities around after our demise as a species. this being plausible, would they appreciate art? my worry over this made me realize a deep motivation i had: immortality by means of craft, my i.e. my artworks & other artistic endevours. this vanity troubled me, that my ego was this inflated and that my REASON for doing what i do and the shear discomfort this lifestyle .. it was no longer nobel, altruistic. i thought i belived what i did was a sacred thing, i felt that, even the most humble of the arts, was a holy thing. for me art was supposed to be the representation of the boundless capacity of woman/man to trancend our biological realities and form amazing constructs out of our abstract, non-corpreal thoughts . this is magic, what we do. our creativity is what overwhelmingly makes us US. my self-doubts not-with-standing, the idea that robots or artificial entities of inteligence may or may not appreciate what we call art is an interesting one, and it is begging discussion. i for one will be doing research in regards to this issue, and will very likely be devoting my next private works to this concept, approching it from several facets. having realized the possible vanity of making art for robots, i think i can trancend this dillema, and i'm attacking the subject happily, thinking of hovering android art galleries on the moons of jupiter nodding with approval at the pages of my soiled and dirty sketchbooks. and speaking of...

like i said, i'm going through an "artist block" which might just mean i'm lazy..